Self-Esteem... poor

Have you ever received a hair cut that totally transformed your self-esteem? I just did and I cannot believe how much it has effected my mood. It's completely annoying me.

On Thursday, I set up an appointment to get my hair cut. I found this awesome picture of Jessica Alba with shorter hair (about chin length) and I wanted my hair to look just like it. Simple cut, I thought. I was giving the girl a picture and wanting her to replicate it. Easy peasy!

When I showed her the photo on my phone, she said that she already had that photo on file. Perfect, I thought! She's already done this cut before. There is no way this can go wrong. She asked me if I wanted it to be chin length and I nodded yes.

After the cut, she blow dried my hair and when I was spun around to face the mirror, my initial thought was, "oh my gosh, I look like Wolowitz" (for those of you who do not know what that is, he's a character on the tv series, "Big Bang Theory.")

Ugh! Not a good comparison!

She then flat ironed it, added a bit of texturizing paste and handed me a mirror. I was not impressed, but I lied and said I liked it. Why did I do that? Why couldn't I have been honest and say, "You didn't give me the style I asked for. You cut it shorter than my chin. My hair looks like a helmet."

Instead, I lied and pretended to like it.

The next day, I woke up and still disliked it. So, I washed it and hoped that if I tried to style it that my opinion would change. It did slightly, I was able to get my hair straighter and sleeker and I thought it looked okay only if I had it behind my ears. But as you know, constant movement causes your hair to shift and I had to make a conscious effort to remember to tuck it behind my ears.

The next day, I felt a little better. Still not in love, but what can I do about that. I've got to make the most out of it. It wasn't until we went to do some glass blowing and my husband was taking pictures of me (since we could only go one at a time) and when my turn was up, I took the camera back and went through the images and BOOM, my mood changed. Ugh... my hair looks horrible from the back. AHHHHHH. I felt it looked boyish and that I looked plain. My self-esteem level shot down down down!

Now, I'm trying to figure out ways to make it work... I've heard that if you massage your scalp to stimulate the hair, that it could help it grow. (I actually heard this from my old hairdresser, Vanessa) But is this actually true? My best friend, who recently moved away and who happened to be the one who I trusted completely with my hair and gave me the most amazing cuts said that my hair grows fast so I will only have to put up with it for a little bit.

It's just a haircut. That's all, right? I'm praying it grows faster than usual. I'm sure stress makes it grow slow -- that would be my luck.

And no, I will not be posting a picture. Just picture me as one of those little army guys that their hair removes and plugs back in (resembling a helmet) -- that's me! GRRR.